Fuck it

wow well aleeza has decided that she hates me, and that i dont make her happy. so next 6 days she wont talk to me. i feel like shit cause i love her, but shes really being a bitch right now. she knows it bothers me when she goes and parties and she kept bringing it up today, so i told her about jordyn. Jordyn is a girl i met yesterday no big deal she invited me to board with her yesterday and then invited me to come to alittle party at her place for some drinks tonight. aleeza flipped a shit and got angry. soooo now here i am. jessica and i are fighting, aleeza and i are fighting, and i just dont know what to do. i guess i'll just drink away the pain.

update in my world

well im dating a new girl, Jessica, she's kinda awesome :) she has a tumblr but she kinda uses it as a diary so she doesn't want me to go on there so i won't. none of my friends see why im with her, but its one of those things i cant explain ya know? i like her alot and she makes me happy and i have alot of fun with her so im with her. my grades arent that good but oh well i'll live. i didn't get into brown dream shattered right there but its ok ill live. im trying to write the class song for my grade i hope i finish it in time :) i got into auburn and alabama but no surprise there, i wanna go far away though so idk
bye
:)

little more poetry

send me to hell,
i dont care,
just set fire to my bare,
arms and skin,
don't let me in,
ill be fine,
burning for the rest of time.


im a jealous mess. i don't know if i can do this anymore, its just like i look at pictures even ones that are jokingly sexual and i wanna kill someone and i can't take this like im getting soooo pissed

someone kill me?

evol

so there is this thing, it sucks and its called life. its a gift and a curse. i hate it, but i love it. i want out, but i don't wanna lose everyone. i just don't know what to do.

what to do about it all

im failing
school
relationships
lovers
im screwed
and i cant fix it
fuck

i need to get this off my chest

im losing my mind
a- we're falling away from eachother
o- im missing you
a- your coming back but we cant be
c-i just wish i had a chance
aoac huh not even a word gotta love random letters right?