release

UGH shes drunk again and with guys and now i have to spend all night wondering what she's doing and who with hopefully she'll tell me the truth tomorrow i hate this i havent talked to her like all day and now she's out drinking i just feel unimportant i miss her sooo much i hope she doesn't do anything but i wish i had people to go out and get drunk with every weekend like heri mean if i wanted to i guess i could but it just know she doesnt want me to so i don't but then she goes and does and doesn't even think twice about me. its terribly annoying. i mean doesn't she think i wanna go out there and hook up with chicks but she'd flip a shit and i dont want that, so i decided not to do anything because i love her oh well i think i may go out late and goof around tomorrow night i could use a good drink i love her but she hurts me and doesn't care enough to stop so im gonna go out and drink tmw fun stuff

broke

the deed is done she has in fact hooked up with another guy and of course i care and it kills me but i will never tell her that i want her to be happy even if that means going out and letting other dudes finger her and eat her out its gonna kill me and i'm gonna be broken into pieces but i cant let her think im controlling or let her know it kills me but oh well i guess i'll have to fake the smile i always do i love her and i just need to keep telling myself she's worth it

well

well life sucks but i'll live
i miss her everyday and even though she gets mad aout who i hangout with i'll never say she can't hang out with someone even if it kills me because i love her and i trust her she really is perfect :) thats the only good thing that she loves me thats what gets me throuh each and every day